又是烟花璀璨时

璀璨二字，从古至今广泛应用。从曹植的《洛神赋》、蒲松龄的《柳斋志异》、到冰心的文章，璀璨如同字义，光彩绚丽了上千年。

这二字现在怎么解？很多人无力挽留他们很想留住的东西，为了安抚，才有了短暂却美丽的字眼。短暂或美丽与否，似乎它们停留你内心的时间。

看烟花、表演、闪电、音乐喷泉，我都没有任何的顿悟，纯粹用肉眼。肉眼看到美就美，毫无新意也罢。要买门票看“璀璨”好的就打一下广告；烂的就唸一下避免更多人中招。

这些年头，有了层出不穷的相机，一大堆使用年限越来偏低的手机，在这个又是烟花璀璨时的季节，燃灭的瞬间，你可以用你的苹果4或5、佳能或三星。至于有没有看过、听过、玩过、去过呢，这些才是重点吧。这个年头，不要再跟我们说那个飞流直下三千尺，疑是银河落九天的庐山瀑布。我们没有想象，只关心 megapixel 和 display resolution。

匿藏依赖

天气反复无常，不过每晚的夜还是冷的。刚开始生活在有秋冬之分的国家，就想要有个可以棒在手心塞在腹部让自己暖呼呼的东西。所以暖壶手套围巾总是侍候在旁，尤其是晚上，有恐怠慢，包括暖水袋。还对自己说去到什么地方、国家一定要买个很有当地色彩暖包或暖水袋。拿这礼物送人是多窝心啊！

渐渐，默默，慢慢，又或者，潜移默化。这些无形的东西真是可怕。因为它们的威力大得可以匿藏我身旁的种种护身，在我不知觉下。我不再每次想起暖水袋，不再有事没事脖子围条长巾，虽然觉得戴围巾很cool。还是说，这些无形的种种，代表了自己对某个环境的适应？确定了对某件事情的看透和成长？与其说是护身，它们更正了我，是依赖。

有时候，我还是会对自己认为有空时可以依赖一下的东西买回家。

山羊绒围巾，我最近爱上的依赖。

卖鸡饭的名字

月饼和印度煎饼，没有说哪一个比较好吃。人的矛盾和痛苦，自有比较和选择而始。为什么是月饼，不是梳打饼豆沙饼。有时候写东西也要应节一下，本意就是想要让自己好过一些，虽然闻不到月饼香还可以忆一下文章。

今天又吃了两片Chapatti，不是吃腻不腻或者是好不好吃的问题，是就好象没什么选择，档口玻璃框望进去还剩下鸡胸肉几片，就来碟鸡饭，一样。可是人家的名字可以是Chapatti，就不会有华人姓陈叫鸡饭，就算是个家里卖鸡饭的。最多叫鸡饭王，或鸡王，也是匿名或招牌之类，不会是报生纸NAMA那一栏里的。

不懂是不是当年有个叫Chapatti的创造出那个不知道要叫什么，最后以他自己的名字命名的东西。到后来，人们就以这名来纪念当年的那个很有创意的Chapatti，完全与今天下午盘中的那两片圆圆薄薄的东西无关。说回鸡饭，家附近就有一档很好吃的鸡饭。别以为说那人身形纤瘦白晰鼻梁架个眼镜，就让人感觉比较秀气。那完全是因为手上提的是本书加个highlight pen，不是拿把菜刀加个沾板。走上前去order ，看你永远是鼻孔朝着你，像是因为常年对着沾板，抬头时眼珠子也很难提得上来。那种pattern ，通常我们叫“拦屎”。这字怎么来，无从考究。香港人也这么说吗？因为只有广东话才是韵味的关键。喜欢这个字，纯粹是音调的问题，任何一种方言语文只要是可以阐释出这种大摆高傲姿态的，也只有拦屎最可爱最耐听。

所以，那卖鸡饭的，也可以叫拦屎仔鸡饭。好听。

印度菠菜

住的地方有个设备齐全的厨房，加上少了额外休闲娱乐的消费，自然而然就多了呆在厨房的时间。吃在最穷得月底，可以是熬冬菇清汤面线再撒堆葱花；吃在有钱的月头，可以烤个一人分的鸡或蒸个鱼头来啃。都不懂独吃难肥是出自那个阿叉的口，大部分的日子就是在独吃，肚腩就好像街市的花腩肉可以吊起斩件来卖。

每隔个星期就会逛农民市场，蔬果真是平靓正。他们所讲的菠菜，我看来看去还是像不知名的草，煮熟不带苦也酸吧？抱着试试看心态买了一大把才Rs10 (不到马币一块)，葱头进锅爆香好快炒，再铺在调好香料的Pasta送进烤炉。

有时候呢太主观到头来真是害死人，为自己添上很多不知名的理由，其实看深层想深层一点，都没有什么道理。菠菜的味道和我们平常吃的根本就相距不远，或者说没什么分别。为什么我国超市菜市的都那么贵？是人吃贵了，还是物以稀为贵？如是后者，那结论应该是菠菜比较适合印度这边来种了。

i miss you

i miss the moment when you called and said "good morning"

i miss the moment when you said "am coming"

i miss the moment when you tried to fool me but didn't aware of lots of early signs than you revealed and keep asking "how did you know"

i miss the moment when you trying to tell me your story but finally you are hearing mine's

i miss every flashed of your smile when you seen something funny or heard what i said or trying to say

i miss the moment when you sat into my car hastily to buckle up and ridiculed me

i miss the moment when you looking at me and crooked a side your head when you still didn't get me

i miss the moment when you picked me up in the depot

i miss the moment when you looking at me and say "i gotta go"

i miss the moment when you said ... "i miss you"

i miss the moment when i said, "i miss you, too" ... ...

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买书记

衣服鞋子手袋永远都是讲不完闹不尽的话题。近来这几天天气阴阴沉沉，如果上午没来些雨点，傍晚出门就不能穿长裤布鞋了。很讨厌裤管湿湿却欲罢不能卷上来又碍眼难看的尴尬场面。刮风时会认为说有件军装绿的长袖衣，就可以配上那条米白色的7分裤，再拎着车白线格子的牛仔布手提袋出门... 这一天，我又又又买了！

另外满为患的就是书！近来再怎么忙也腾出一两小时给自己的心灵和脑袋，读得多自然也买得多了。你说大可以在书局里逛，喜欢的就呆在那儿读，每次一两个chapter，书读完后架回架子上，一举多得，没碍家里空间也省了钱！话虽如此，可是生理心理上有不少坏毛病，喜欢在书里涂涂画画做记号，而且站不久就老是要上厕所，憋着尿来读，前两页写些什么都不怎么记得了。

村上春树的著作是头一回买，不过梁文道的还真是书局里头的稀有品种，而且价钱太高，真的毫无选择每次只能呆在架子前读。若不是碰上书展有打折还不舍得棒回家，也无法实现在当某天心血来潮时能轻易从自家的书架上搁下来回味。

想起某部落格作者发觉说他单身贵族的侄女搬新家却没有书架，要她去买一个当作是送她新居入伙的礼物。现在真要是有哪位阔气大老爷要送我书架，我会先拿张白纸黑字草写这一份多年以后兑现的惠赠，因为目前的情形，就如你走在街上看着琳琅满目的食物摊子只会担心钱带不够、对头街的行人赶上一辆接一辆的的士，但经过自己身边的却是停止载客或已被截走... 容不下吖。

威化这东西

Wafer 的威力足以融化闷在心里头的不快。吃一块，闷气消了一点点，再吃一块吧，再一块...

薄薄一片，色泽鲜艳层次分明，每次都爱买不同颜色味道来尝。可是却在极不愿意知道的情况下知道了某件令自己忧伤的事。就好像当你知道某男人或女孩最不为人知的一面之后，就会发觉其实他并不怎么可爱了。食物亦然。

它的奶油脂肪含量每快超过40个歉卡路里，密度又低，吃多肚子是有点涨，却吃不饱。隐藏背后的除了甜的分量，还有钾明矾和明矾等，引入了铝超标的隐患。铝的危害一点也不逊色于铅，食用铝超标的膨化食品，铝会在人体内不断的累积，引起神经系统的病变，干扰人的思维、意识和记忆功能。

终于找到一样可以此类推的事件，就是有的好“赖”了。怪不得我一直以来记性好像一直在退化。车子熄火lock了之后，走不到两步又折回头检查...

内容还提到严重者可能痴呆。人体中铝元素含量太高时，会影响对磷的吸收。在肠道内形成的不溶性磷酸铝随粪便排出体外。缺磷影响钙的吸收，造成沉积在骨质中的钙流失，抑制骨生成，发生骨软化症。摄入过高的铝，还可能导致骨质疏松，容易发生骨折。

吃样自己钟爱的食物也那么惨，那真的还有好多的食物是不能进口了，虽然很多人都在倡导乐活、有机... 如果因为这样而与它绝缘，那人生有还有什么乐趣可言？威化和我的 Milo Kosong 是绝配，除了那悠久的兵乓焦焦饼。还是照吃，只是，真的吃少了。

怀念那个披萨

喜欢吃西红柿，亦称为番茄。就好像本地人称为水蓊的，台湾人叫它为莲雾。你完全是无法想象并将这两种感觉是差异千里的东西可以混为一谈。

番茄酸涩的味道，是不是只要是有用它做主角或配角的烹调都喜欢呢？其实一直以来都认为说可以和番茄混在一个锅子里头的或做配料或为头盘，绝不会差到哪儿去，下厨的那位当然指的是至少有丁点烹饪技巧知道什么时候该撒盐何时要熄火。要不然，你可以想象出来的菜肴，红红橙橙，可能某个角度乍看是蓝的，是连望也不想望，路过还会将脖子别一别。

怀念铺在披萨饼皮上的番茄，就如披萨本身一样，已经大大超越言语上文化上等种种的隔阂。n年前他和朋友合资开的披萨店，一个星期就有几天会去Little India 的某特大印度商场买材料。噢，说道那家商场，是个梦魇。排架之间，只容得下一个手推车，要你就走在前面，要不就跟在后面，完全是不能够并肩而行。走进排放食油酱料品处，我真的怕那不小心的靠一靠，那些一桶桶的东西会跳下来把我压死。买的最多的，除了葱头蒜米，就是番茄。

Califonia 是我的最爱。最底层的芝士，然后是馅料，再来就是番茄，最后再铺一层芝士。底层和面层的分量也好讲究，不然达不到 “卡滋卡滋” 的效果。

番茄和芝士简直就像艳红的唇膏后再上一层薄薄的lipgloss，女人为那新添的性感而散发自信，男人为那微翘的红唇为之着迷。两者是个是完美的结合，我喜欢。可是他每次都说少了些什么，又说该再买个什么什么样的烤箱，出来的就perfect。对我来说，吃是咀嚼过程的味觉，味蕾上的饱和是完全不如那双粗壮的手铐出来的食物给与我心灵上的实在与满足，再也不是番茄如此而已的东西。我没告诉他，因为他无法了解。

意味

很早已经听说也从陌生变成没有感觉，

就是没有给自己机会好好去尝试感受。

因为每次听起来就好像某家的老阿伯，

在屋檐下呃呃作响藤椅上在昏黄灯下，

重复说着他的故事，

不属于孩子的。

意味着，那是一碗遥远的过桥面线。

却完全没有认为，

这可能也意味着，

那是一个对自己生命期许的转折点。

松弛身心后的一呼一吸，

感受微风拍向背部，再到颈椎、头额，

那份惊喜让你无言。

种种化学反应，

意味着，那将会是一份持久的坚持。

Raindrops keep falling on my head~

The past few days has been really slow due to the massive traffic jams, flooding, unfinished phone calls and appointments need to be arranged, stack of documents on my working desk need to be done and complete...Well, this is a contradict world and there is no such perfect thing. From drizzling to heavy rain and leads to flood and caused my car's brake not functioning well just because I have no choice not to drive over the terrible flooded area...Oh gosh!

Where is the real blue sky and sun? Anyway, it was a nice change. I enjoy the moment of rain drops keep falling on my head...yeah, sometimes, just about right, neither more nor less...

Craving for a new look

I am craving for a new look after been for a year of patient and tolerate with the hot weather... I Like the short, bit of messy and texture look. Hmm...,or maybe not for that at this moment but a long wavy style first?

You know what, sometimes, you just have to let your hair stylist to do what he likes because to be sure, they got a great taste. Of course you can let him know what exactly you looking for but things is the result always out from the expectation, and you always happy with the result and forgot what you have wish earlier on.

To be bear in mind, we walk into a place call salon, is a place for hair-dresser not magician, so never handed a magazine with Jennifer Aniston on the cover and tell your hairstylist : I want to look like that. The hairstylist might think off : Come-on, am not a plastic surgery and the only way to look like that is if you cut out the picture and staple it to your head?

Simple and Beautiful

In the spirit of this holiday season, I brough a packet of flour that I already keep for couple of months (ooopppsss..!) to one of my dear friends' house for baking a wonderful array of petite cookies.

We had a tough time choosing between, shape, thickness, well, everything. After much deliberation...and sacrified an old mixer nonetheless, we produced these gorgeous shape of cookies that we had an agreement finally. It really taste as good as they look, a great and crunchy sweet and lovely butter cookies!

I greatly appreciated of the wonderful creation but i still prefer to cook a table of meals for a dining instead of staying in the kitchen for nearly a day just to keep sending a tray by tray of the cookies into the microwave oven... anyway, thanks for your lovely accompany my dear (hi Ann!) and am looking forward to cook you and your family an afternoon meals that I promiesed on next coming weekend!

Cuddle the weekend in Sg

Happy December! I find it really hard to believe that a whole year just went by like that...especially after I came back from Singapore for another lovely weekend, time is truly flying by.

Well, I love when every weekend arrives because I could possible to see my love one which is 350km away from my place. Am really strenching my neck and looking forward to enjoy my day over there and goshopping. I've bought myself (opps, actually am the one who chosen but he paid for it…lol!) a bucket of skincare and bath products, and a new gadget for my laptop that am planning to buy long time ago. In addition, I love my new elegance gold heels and the pearls accessories.

To be honest, material comforts wouldn't makes a happy feeling to be long lasting. What preserves forever? We all knew it, don't you?

Little Surprises

Love that the weekend has finally arrived… Well, it’s end of November and December just around the corner and seems like can’t wait to step in. Am not a Christian so have no massive Christmas list of to- do’s, to have’s or try to-do’s…lol. But, am looking forward to dine with my love one this weekend and walking along the street with full of holiday season’s decorations. From mini to huge Christmas trees, Christmas lights along the road side and buildings, from classic elements to handmade and unique pieces, am very sure everything will be inspired me all night long.

Besides that, I wanted to give him something unique that I’ve had bought couple week ago. Not a pre-Christmas gift item of course but I do hope he will like it! I love the wrapping idea, it's so luxurious and such a customized touch to presents! Don't you think it's too pretty to open?

A crush with BEAN

Here u come, Saturday! I've started daydreaming about all the delicious treats I'll be eating soon and, unfinished soya bean milk to drink along this weekend.

Couple days ago, I found out my ex colleugue (hi vs!) know how to made soya bean. Guess what, we decided to let soya bean to join us in our afternoon gathering. I love it so much since I am not really like to get carton of high preservative soya bean milk in supermarket and usually I only can get it through street stall when I pass by.

My weekend was wonderfull. Because of bean, I get to know Vs's two lovely puppies Keiga and Take, gorgeous pets. Moreover, I packed lot of fashion magazines for spending on a sunday rainy afternoon. Of course, with a glass of soya bean milk.

Panties panties!

Im busy with my closet makeover recently. An organised closet really does make things alot simpler when you have everything right infront of you. I don't have a huge wardrobe and my accessories including shoes and handbags were "parked" in a different place so the variety of closet consider large enought (at this moment, ahaha) for me to place my clothes.

Surprisingly, I found that I've soooooooooo many new panties that I bought earlier before especially when am traveling. Am started to think of, do I addicted in a "panties collection"? Different color and fabric does makes us feel comfy and looks great besides of physical appreance. I started to buy different kind of collections, great colours combination, lovely fabrics and styles of panties after I've had received the first dozen of panties from him years ago. It is same like when you see something classy and chic and detailed with some laces and symbols when you passing by a wardrobe window, where you toes will be headed to?

Yellow day

A New month! But this great year end season was welcomed by A yellow day…pfff…! My grandma always telling me when I was a child, your bed will get floated in a yellow day. Is a raining season in the Ninth God Festival, a grand celebration for Chinese society . Done all the washing and cleaning, the best thing to do now is lying on my comfy coach and spend the rest afternoon with the latest fashion magazine and a glass of honey of course lol.

Little parsley

I like october. I am really looking forward to October due to I had lots of thing to be expected in this lovely season. To me, it meants windy, sweet, white singlet, brownie scarf and pink flip flop. Announcements, celebrations, gatherings...all fall in this month. My dear friends in another part of world, should be busy on choosen out their lovely socks, thousand of colors different of materials and knitted beautifully... yes, they do fancy with socks!

Woke up early to prepare a brunch for myself! An hour of cooking but finished within 20 minutes, lol. Butter and Cheese Mushroom Spaghetti... I like the chopped parsley. It mixed well in the white gravy pepper sause and the color combination more like an embellishement. Life is always full of surprise, even a small bunch of parsley.

Breezy afternoon

Feeling pretty good, as I permed my hair, finally, for the first time, which should be another surprise for 'some one'~...lol. And, i've enjoyed sleeping and relaxing for the day. Beside of planning my great escape to Bangkok, yes,again! end of this month, as well as hoping my white gorgeous pants still allowed my little tummy to fit into, for the coming event in Singapore this weekend.

Delighted

Well it's Friday again already. A week totally fly off. I did a whole bunch of nothing.. :S but, am finally finishing up the last of my unpacking and cleaning and am defintely waiting for the next gathering to come this weekend! Friday, could be my dear friend's last day of rotation and probably busy on ironing her uniforms? lol, what I really wish is a gathering with bottles of Vodka and bowls of lemon slice... how wonderful friday evening is!